Another year, another birthday! I love celebrating my birthday. I really really love celebrating it. I love it so much that it is considered a birthmonth instead of a birthday. Typical Gemini and somewhat annoying perhaps? Well, I clearly do not care haha  My friends and family are used to it by now, although my husband (after 11 years of being with me) still thinks it’s ridiculous, but it doesn’t stop him from supporting my crazy and strange ways. This year, I am obsessed with pineapples. I love pineapples because they STAND OUT and they’re delish.

It was a sparkly, pink, pineapple filled birthday. 3 suppers, 1 brunch, and a spa day on a sunny day. Birthday with my friends, birthday at the office, birthday supper with some other friends, and birthday with my family. I am all about celebrating life , whenever, wherever, and however . As beautiful as life may be, it can be royally shitty and fucked up a lot of the time. This year , my best friend lost her mother. Words will never express the sadness my heart felt. Not only did I love her, like a mother, but seeing my best friend lose her mother… no words. none whatsoever. All I want to say, to you my bestie, is that I love you and that you inspire ME. I also want to thank you for spending the day with me at the spa on my birthday (my actual birthday) and for also celebrating my birthday last Saturday! We had a great relaxing day at the spa, and I am so happy that I got to spend my day with you.

 

I turned 32 this year. Such a random age, but I am so grateful and happy. It has been a crazy year, a roller coaster ride of emotions and new adventures. This wild blogging journey of mine, something that I am so proud of , but still very scared of. Weird, right? I have met so many amazing people and will be partaking of awesome collaborations with some beautiful people. I never imagined how overwhelming (in a great way, yet scary way) this would be. It is definitely time consuming and I still have to learn how to properly manage my time , but I know I will get there. The support around me is unbelievably touching, and knowing that people appreciate what I am doing for the body positivity community is worth it all. Worth all of the time spent in pouring my heart and vulnerability out there to all of you. When I receive messages and e-mails from my readers, it makes me realize that I am doing this for a real purpose. It is beyond posting pictures of myself to show the world that curvy chicks rock, and that we can pull off beautiful outfits also, but that I am showing woman that anything is possible and that they are not alone. My biggest accomplishment this year, by far! I am so grateful and thank you again to all of you.

Cookie by Yes Please MTL

So, I am 32. I am alive, I am healthy, I have an amazing family, amazing friends , a job that I love and that challenges me everyday, and my new found passion, my blog. I do want to share with you all that I did not see myself doing this at 32. I thought that by now, I would be a mother. Busy taking care of a little human, but that is not the case. When we got married, at 30, we spoke about the “right time” to become parents. 32 seemed perfect. Well, 2 years later and that hasn’t happened. 5 months ago, I would probably be lying if I said I was ok with not being pregnant yet, but today, June 18th 2017 , the day after my 32nd birthday, I can honestly say that I am fine. There are some things in life that you cannot plan, and this is one of them (for me, at least). I am enjoying life and loving life, and celebrating life whenever I can. My husband and I have two trips planned for this year, and that gets me SO EXCITED! I am passionate about a lot of things. Life, my loved ones, animals, traveling, curvy fashion, music, sex (haha)… All of this keeps me busy.I recently raised $2,300 for the SPCA, which is something I do every year because I LOVE DOGS! It is very important to help out your community. So, yes, I might not be a mother right now, but I am one happy woman. I am keeping busy, and discovering so many new things about myself and people.  To all of you who are not exactly where they think they should be right now, listen to me just for a second. Timelines are often unrealistic. Life happens, shit happens, and plans change. Go with the flow, and whatever is meant to be will be. Don’t stop trying (regardless of what it is that you want) but don’t let it stop you from enjoying today and what is happening to you right now.

 

Now, go celebrate something. Your birthday, your loved ones birthdays, weddings, anniversaries, furbaby birthdays, milestones… whatever it may be. It is important to enjoy what we have today, even though it may not be exactly what you desired or wished for right now, but it’s your reality. We will always want more, and better… but taking the time to appreciate now is super important. Don’t rush, don’t panic, find the light in the darkest of moments, and remember that we only have one life to live.

LOVE,

Tonina