The weekend has come and gone, yet again. I hope you all had a good one. I did, even though I am feeling under the weather (as long as I am feeling better by Friday, for my trip to Florida, then no need to bitch). Florida this Friday, which means beach on Saturday. With beach comes bathing suits, with bathing suits comes showing off your body, in my case, my curvy body. I put on weight since my last trip to Florida this past September (fuck, I put on weight in only 5 months. The struggle got REAL).

Here is a little throwback to my lengthy journey. There have been lots of ups and downs, but mostly downs (as in the weight going down). Here I am , in two different bathing suits, in two different years. The picture on the left is me in Acapulco, back in 2012, weighing approximately 225 lbs, and on the right, me again, in Acapulco (again) in 2013, weighing approximately 170 lbs. I felt amazing. I was at my best. Oh what one year can do to you! I was so proud. Ok, back to the present, 2017.

 

Might as well be completely honest with all of you. I put on 17 lbs this past year. I had dropped down to 172 lbs at some point (I lost weight the very unhealthy way). I had lost almost 12 lbs in 10 days. I was going through a stressful time, and my appetite was nowhere to be found. It really sucked because I thought I looked good, but I did NOT feel good. I felt terrible. No pitty party here, just sharing with you what happened. But I am good now , heavier and thicker, but better than ever. Here is a before and after picture of me half naked (this is the first time I EVER show this much of my body on social media. Even though I am known to be shameless, I am shitting my pants a little bit right now). The picture on the left is now, and the picture on the right is the 17 lbs lighter version of me,  exactly 1 year ago, with long ass hair!

I went bathing suit shopping. Joy to the world. I bought 2 one-piece bathing suits at Forever21 (size XL, Forever21 +). Two styles I never really imagined myself wearing. I do feel sexy in them though. The last time I wore a new bathing suit I was lighter, so I really felt the difference this time, but I did not let it ruin my shopping experience. Hell NO! I, unlike many women, enjoy bathing suit shopping. I always have (well, as an adult. Ask my momma, it’s true). OK, it’s not my favourite thing to do, and it’s not like I would want to do it over and over again, but I actually enjoy my body. I have no choice. It’s my body! I love my body, cellulite and all, but this does not mean that I do not want better for my body. I am on another weight loss journey, this is true, but for now, I might as well just go with the flow and show off what is mine (and there is lots to show off!) I do not own any bikinis (yet) but I do own vintage style two piece bathing suits. Very flattering styles for us curvy gals. They hug us in all the right places, and show off all the right stuff, even our tummies! I took a pictures of myself in my new red bathing suit, to show all ya’ll that you should never be ashamed of what is yours, and your body is all yours, only yours. If you are on a weight loss journey like myself, I am very proud of you, but don’t hate what you currently have. Accepting your body will help you throughout your journey, I promise you this.

So, I guess it is safe to say that today is day 1. Day 1. OK wait, day 1 starts tomorrow. Never start day 1 on a SUNDAY! 30 lbs , I can do this, and I know you can too, no matter what your magic number is. By the way, let me tell you that I will forever be a curvy girl. I am a big boned girl, and I am realistic about my goals and body, and you should be too!

Enjour your Sunday evening my lovelies.

Love, Tonina XOX